finally finishh with it(：
现在只有两个月就考试了 要加油 加油加油～
2009年3月25日星期三
actually all i want to say after what happened today in school is thanks loadz to the people who were there for me when i was :(
katrina macy amy yellow whom all told me to do whats best for me n it was really true cuz i did feel better immediatly after i said it
n yangjie and weicheng n macy n katrina who made me smile again after what happened
and now finally, i know what i have did is right. not of the decision i chose today, but of the desicion i chose before: to cherish what i have now. and i did. i cherished my family and friends most, and this is what i have today. thinking back, if i did not cherish them, or if i did not learn from my mistakes i would be dead. real dead.
i just learnt alot of things off this. people cherish more after they lost it. thats how i learnt. even though it was through the hard way, i still learnt alot from my mistakes.
but sometimes, if the soft way doesnt work, you will just have to learn it the hard way.
oh yah. im not changing next yr. if i am i prbbly will stay back 1 yr. so dats impossible for me. so i will either go biss or dulwich after s4 我現在只能認認真真的讀書 努力努力努力 要全力以赴了 不知道全力以赴的敏燕會考幾分呢。。
電腦不知道爲什麽不時簡體了 但應該沒關係 XD
爲了我的未來 我拚了！
謝謝今天所有幫助過我的人(:
讓我們一起加油哦~~
my(:
katrina macy amy yellow whom all told me to do whats best for me n it was really true cuz i did feel better immediatly after i said it
n yangjie and weicheng n macy n katrina who made me smile again after what happened
and now finally, i know what i have did is right. not of the decision i chose today, but of the desicion i chose before: to cherish what i have now. and i did. i cherished my family and friends most, and this is what i have today. thinking back, if i did not cherish them, or if i did not learn from my mistakes i would be dead. real dead.
i just learnt alot of things off this. people cherish more after they lost it. thats how i learnt. even though it was through the hard way, i still learnt alot from my mistakes.
but sometimes, if the soft way doesnt work, you will just have to learn it the hard way.
oh yah. im not changing next yr. if i am i prbbly will stay back 1 yr. so dats impossible for me. so i will either go biss or dulwich after s4 我現在只能認認真真的讀書 努力努力努力 要全力以赴了 不知道全力以赴的敏燕會考幾分呢。。
電腦不知道爲什麽不時簡體了 但應該沒關係 XD
爲了我的未來 我拚了！
謝謝今天所有幫助過我的人(:
讓我們一起加油哦~~
my(:
2009年3月23日星期一
bcuz of u i have now
bcuz of u i haf lost
bcuz of u i regret
bcuz of wat u did im dissapointed
bcuz of who u r i am shocked
n bcuz of u, n bcuz of wat u did,
i choose to leave u
the very simple things of life
it falls, and breaks, and dies.
goes into the ground, rises, and falls.
its something people call a cycle.
something extraordinary, something special, something different.
yet, its a simple song, a simple story; like death
she's a baby, she's a teenager, he's dead
its yet a confusing story where people dont understand
despite its simple meaning, despite its simple way of showing, despite its shallow meaning of the word.
yet i do now understand.
its just a small cycle, where you loose as it falls and breaks, where its a simple story with a confusing meaning.
if i say..
if i say i were yours,
you would kiss my cheeks and say the words,
the very words hidden in your heart
if i say i wanted to leave you,
you would ask me why
while stroking my hair, u will look down
and stop the tears even if i know they are there
if i say i love you
you would hold my hand and kiss it soft
because i know you love me too,
and no matter wat i say u will b there for me bet all t
hey want to say, and all i want to say are the same few wrds.
bcuz of u i haf lost
bcuz of u i regret
bcuz of wat u did im dissapointed
bcuz of who u r i am shocked
n bcuz of u, n bcuz of wat u did,
i choose to leave u
the very simple things of life
it falls, and breaks, and dies.
goes into the ground, rises, and falls.
its something people call a cycle.
something extraordinary, something special, something different.
yet, its a simple song, a simple story; like death
she's a baby, she's a teenager, he's dead
its yet a confusing story where people dont understand
despite its simple meaning, despite its simple way of showing, despite its shallow meaning of the word.
yet i do now understand.
its just a small cycle, where you loose as it falls and breaks, where its a simple story with a confusing meaning.
if i say..
if i say i were yours,
you would kiss my cheeks and say the words,
the very words hidden in your heart
if i say i wanted to leave you,
you would ask me why
while stroking my hair, u will look down
and stop the tears even if i know they are there
if i say i love you
you would hold my hand and kiss it soft
because i know you love me too,
and no matter wat i say u will b there for me bet all t
hey want to say, and all i want to say are the same few wrds.
2009年3月20日星期五
2day went out for lunch roy kept shoutin hey in chinese to the random ppl on the road. some were lke shoked some were lke O.o n den we went to browns and eat.
i bought spaghetti but den i changed to sandwich n soup combo. lols. the person looks pissed the owner of the shop is 2 men, 1 from malaysia, 1 from singapore. n bside the soup dere was dis brown stick thingy. macy didnt eat hers, i tried mine n it taste sour.
nden timmy bought me macy n jingyi coldstone XD thx loadz timmy~ n den changwon n roy said they want my ice cream. actually, i asked dem first. den i try to give changwon but he keep saying 你不是要吗？n den i ate a bit. n den changwon alredi buy alredi so i give roy.
n den go back to skl. i ask changwon is yur icecream nice. n he said yes. 你要吗？n i said no. cuz mythroat dat time allergic again. but thx anyways.
n den in class, watch finish slumdog. its the third time watching it. n den watch the day the earth stood still. it was soooo exciting. watch a bit den we go down play bball
quite boring. jingyi n macy played with timmy nicholas jimi n two other guyz. i dun reli lke play with ppl i duno. so i play with yangjie. n den i 盖a s1 person XD. but it got boring. so i tlk to changwon for a while. n den listen music. den play with yang jie. he is so damn pro. rough n fast.
n den go home. n den swimminng.
tried to buy a candy from a machine but it stuck. my money went in, n i only got the change of $0.50 back = =the person started shaking the machine. i was even = = it wldnt drop down if u shake dat way. n e person gave us 3 rmb.
n den went home.
haf to study.
end
i bought spaghetti but den i changed to sandwich n soup combo. lols. the person looks pissed the owner of the shop is 2 men, 1 from malaysia, 1 from singapore. n bside the soup dere was dis brown stick thingy. macy didnt eat hers, i tried mine n it taste sour.
nden timmy bought me macy n jingyi coldstone XD thx loadz timmy~ n den changwon n roy said they want my ice cream. actually, i asked dem first. den i try to give changwon but he keep saying 你不是要吗？n den i ate a bit. n den changwon alredi buy alredi so i give roy.
n den go back to skl. i ask changwon is yur icecream nice. n he said yes. 你要吗？n i said no. cuz mythroat dat time allergic again. but thx anyways.
n den in class, watch finish slumdog. its the third time watching it. n den watch the day the earth stood still. it was soooo exciting. watch a bit den we go down play bball
quite boring. jingyi n macy played with timmy nicholas jimi n two other guyz. i dun reli lke play with ppl i duno. so i play with yangjie. n den i 盖a s1 person XD. but it got boring. so i tlk to changwon for a while. n den listen music. den play with yang jie. he is so damn pro. rough n fast.
n den go home. n den swimminng.
tried to buy a candy from a machine but it stuck. my money went in, n i only got the change of $0.50 back = =the person started shaking the machine. i was even = = it wldnt drop down if u shake dat way. n e person gave us 3 rmb.
n den went home.
haf to study.
end
2009年3月19日星期四
before i thought being a psychologist was fun, n my mom also tell me to be 1.
but now no. i know how the people feel when they go to one. upset depressed unhappy
now, being a doctor of any kind is the last job i will choose to do. all i want to do is prove to people i can do watever people can do, n better dan dem
but now no. i know how the people feel when they go to one. upset depressed unhappy
now, being a doctor of any kind is the last job i will choose to do. all i want to do is prove to people i can do watever people can do, n better dan dem
childhood
i duno why, but now i sorta choose to face reality.
this is bcuz of wat nic said, n even tho jingyi n macy think dat he shldnt say dat.
i dun wan ppl to think dat im not normal. noooo way.
ms chang told me to tell mr ng bout it, cuz test coming, and its on sin and tan and cos graph.
im sick of telling each new teacher each time about it.
i know all i gotta do is relax. n it'll get better. i hope. at least i know it will. n i wish it will too.
but den im still a bit pissed at wat nic said. and btw, nothin is wrong with my brain. n yah. im normal. n i noe all i gotta do i chill. n relax.
now its lke s3 n im alredi slacking. i need to work harder. esp in maths n sciences and english. others is lke not very very important rite. without maths n sciences wat will u do.
so i muz jia you.
and i know i can do better dan wat ever i am doing now. cuz im minyen. i need to push myself more. plan my time better. but den i feel lke doin it, but i dont == tlkin is no use.
im not worried about anything, but after wat nic said 我感到从梦中醒过来一样，发现reality不是这样的. now i need to improve my grades
mom told me if i study well dis yr she allow me to change skl
im not worried bout dat.
n wen nic said dose things, memories of goin in n out of e damn hospital n clinic makes me pissed. dats y i hate doctors e most no matter wat. esp dat white robe dey wear.
i still remember once, mom brought me to a psychologist cuz i bcame emo n cut myself. i still remember dat. e scene where mom was crying bcuz of me. the times where dad said 你变坏了
n i also remember mom trying to soothe me saying u r normal, all u haf different is a different childhood.
and u no jingyi and macy, sometimes i ask myself. y m i different. ppl ask about it. r u cold min yen? y is your hand...?
the only thing i dont want is pity. i dont want to be pitied cuz im lke a normal person. juz... yah u get wat i mean.
now i understand why bad memories stay longer than good memories. life is short. damn short. no 1 knows when u will die. how u will die. where u go after you die.
but den i know, i wun die before i do wat im suppose to do when im alive. n i know all i gotta do now is study my best. live to the fullest of fullest of my life. i dun care wat ppl say cuz dats wat frenz r for. n i noe the evilest words r the best words.
i am trying to convince myself that im normal cuz i know i am. im trying ways to calm myself down, not get so agitated. den my hand will get better
n if nic sees dis post, all i want to say to him is sry. cuz i didnt reli wan to sorta shout at him.
actually i also want to say thx. cuz if he didnt say dat, i wldnt choose to face reality.
*tries to smile * i dun wan to say dat dis is a forced smile.
i duno wat to say now,
but i know that all i gotta do is do my best in everything, and live on.
i will try to listen wat ppl say to me about it..
i can do it, cuz im min yen.
:]
this is bcuz of wat nic said, n even tho jingyi n macy think dat he shldnt say dat.
i dun wan ppl to think dat im not normal. noooo way.
ms chang told me to tell mr ng bout it, cuz test coming, and its on sin and tan and cos graph.
im sick of telling each new teacher each time about it.
i know all i gotta do is relax. n it'll get better. i hope. at least i know it will. n i wish it will too.
but den im still a bit pissed at wat nic said. and btw, nothin is wrong with my brain. n yah. im normal. n i noe all i gotta do i chill. n relax.
now its lke s3 n im alredi slacking. i need to work harder. esp in maths n sciences and english. others is lke not very very important rite. without maths n sciences wat will u do.
so i muz jia you.
and i know i can do better dan wat ever i am doing now. cuz im minyen. i need to push myself more. plan my time better. but den i feel lke doin it, but i dont == tlkin is no use.
im not worried about anything, but after wat nic said 我感到从梦中醒过来一样，发现reality不是这样的. now i need to improve my grades
mom told me if i study well dis yr she allow me to change skl
im not worried bout dat.
n wen nic said dose things, memories of goin in n out of e damn hospital n clinic makes me pissed. dats y i hate doctors e most no matter wat. esp dat white robe dey wear.
i still remember once, mom brought me to a psychologist cuz i bcame emo n cut myself. i still remember dat. e scene where mom was crying bcuz of me. the times where dad said 你变坏了
n i also remember mom trying to soothe me saying u r normal, all u haf different is a different childhood.
and u no jingyi and macy, sometimes i ask myself. y m i different. ppl ask about it. r u cold min yen? y is your hand...?
the only thing i dont want is pity. i dont want to be pitied cuz im lke a normal person. juz... yah u get wat i mean.
now i understand why bad memories stay longer than good memories. life is short. damn short. no 1 knows when u will die. how u will die. where u go after you die.
but den i know, i wun die before i do wat im suppose to do when im alive. n i know all i gotta do now is study my best. live to the fullest of fullest of my life. i dun care wat ppl say cuz dats wat frenz r for. n i noe the evilest words r the best words.
i am trying to convince myself that im normal cuz i know i am. im trying ways to calm myself down, not get so agitated. den my hand will get better
n if nic sees dis post, all i want to say to him is sry. cuz i didnt reli wan to sorta shout at him.
actually i also want to say thx. cuz if he didnt say dat, i wldnt choose to face reality.
*tries to smile * i dun wan to say dat dis is a forced smile.
i duno wat to say now,
but i know that all i gotta do is do my best in everything, and live on.
i will try to listen wat ppl say to me about it..
i can do it, cuz im min yen.
:]
2009年3月16日星期一
BRRIIIIIIIIII the fire drill
havent wrote my blog for quite few days. yesterday not alot of tchers came to skl cuz some went to the excursion with the sec 4s so yah. in chineese class we WERE bored. lols. i used sung jun's english bk n started revising vocab. he was playin on the electronic thingy... errr watdya even call dat?
not sure but yah~ n den went to bio sat lke for 10 minutes or sth, n den BRRRIIIIIII!!!!!!!! the alarm went....ok ok its the fire drill. so yah, n den we walked down casually REALLY casually. walked n strolled n tlked with jennifer. n den at the field, we tlk n tlk n tlk..den the ppl left, so we left lah !
now im doing chem. oh yah n i juz tlked to ms johnson, she gave me work to do, a vocab sheet. den she asked me to try to give her the essay tommorow. i think ok lah at least its not that hard right.
oh yah n juz now jingyi show me the bitch grl facebk pic. *scoffs* *scoffs* she duz look lke a bitch.
and yah, she is a bitch lols.
cant blive y the tcher think she is gd. but yah, she is wayyyy not.
but yahh.. who cares bout her. but the person memories is being erased away, at least i hope so, cuz the person is my really good fren. n to think that she has hurt the person b4, i wun allow her to hurt my fren, n to do dat, i wld not even let her do anythin again to my fren. even tho i do not noe who did wat first or who with whoever first, i still think that the person.... er wat m i tlkin bout. but yah. and something i want to say here. if i was that person, i would not with her cuz she is a TOTAL BITCH
even though its first impression of her, i still do not like it no matter wad, cuz she thinks im bad juz the first class, so yah. if i give her a bad impression the begginin of the 1st class, i dun give a dam care. cuz onli thing i noe she flirt so much in class, i think she is a bitch n no matter wat, her impression to me is a BITCH
if the person (my fren) knows what i mean:
its over and its forever over. its not worth it. very not worth it. even tho iduno wats goin on now, but i now, at least i know that u r fitting in with yur life now, moving on with your life, cuz i always see a smile on your face.
n most of all. keep dat smile on yur face always n forever.
not sure but yah~ n den went to bio sat lke for 10 minutes or sth, n den BRRRIIIIIII!!!!!!!! the alarm went....ok ok its the fire drill. so yah, n den we walked down casually REALLY casually. walked n strolled n tlked with jennifer. n den at the field, we tlk n tlk n tlk..den the ppl left, so we left lah !
now im doing chem. oh yah n i juz tlked to ms johnson, she gave me work to do, a vocab sheet. den she asked me to try to give her the essay tommorow. i think ok lah at least its not that hard right.
oh yah n juz now jingyi show me the bitch grl facebk pic. *scoffs* *scoffs* she duz look lke a bitch.
and yah, she is a bitch lols.
cant blive y the tcher think she is gd. but yah, she is wayyyy not.
but yahh.. who cares bout her. but the person memories is being erased away, at least i hope so, cuz the person is my really good fren. n to think that she has hurt the person b4, i wun allow her to hurt my fren, n to do dat, i wld not even let her do anythin again to my fren. even tho i do not noe who did wat first or who with whoever first, i still think that the person.... er wat m i tlkin bout. but yah. and something i want to say here. if i was that person, i would not with her cuz she is a TOTAL BITCH
even though its first impression of her, i still do not like it no matter wad, cuz she thinks im bad juz the first class, so yah. if i give her a bad impression the begginin of the 1st class, i dun give a dam care. cuz onli thing i noe she flirt so much in class, i think she is a bitch n no matter wat, her impression to me is a BITCH
if the person (my fren) knows what i mean:
its over and its forever over. its not worth it. very not worth it. even tho iduno wats goin on now, but i now, at least i know that u r fitting in with yur life now, moving on with your life, cuz i always see a smile on your face.
n most of all. keep dat smile on yur face always n forever.
2009年3月15日星期日
sunday
today is a busy busy day first in the mornin woke up at 9:10. it was considered late tho cuz i have to wake up at 9:00 den ea breakfast let the food sorta digest o.0? b fore i go to taekwondo class.
anways today in taekwondo class it was okay-ish i think? oh yah! there are so many little kids now. n dey are sooooo lazy! cant believe it... first thing as usual we had to run for lke rounds for 5 minutes it is not dat easy as it seems! i cant blive why dose kids arent tired after 5 minutes><>
n den we practised old stuff but yahh its sorta of a cycle. as it repeats and repeats n repeats. oh yah oh yah!
the teacher brought the stick to class today >< it =" =">
n den i got reli tired. cuz i concentrated for lke one whole hour which TOTALLY wasnt me. den the last half and hour i sat on the floor while looking at the tcher teach us. den e tcher say 你从那里坐到这里 快站起来 even tho he didnt haf the stick dat time i still did quickly or else the tcher will tell me to run or do 50 push ups....><
( dats worse cuz i cant even do 5 properly )
n den end class. n den went home for lunch.
did some hw......n den went for dance class.... i saw a bitchy girl. she is such a show off. n a bitch. urgh. cant blive im in same class as her.
okay okay her dance is better dan me. but yah who cares? duz she even dance better dan chris? no way! n den we learn a new dance n tcher say i got improveXD yay~ n the grl. she was wearing black shirt n jeans. i almost wanted to ask did u wear the same pants last time? XP n she put blue eyeliner today.
n den go home. n den went out to eat with my family (: cuz mom is going to switzerland for a week. its cold cold dere. hope mom will b ok (:
n den did geo hw did bio hw at the same time.
omg i shld b doing geo.....
shld stop writing.
anways today in taekwondo class it was okay-ish i think? oh yah! there are so many little kids now. n dey are sooooo lazy! cant believe it... first thing as usual we had to run for lke rounds for 5 minutes it is not dat easy as it seems! i cant blive why dose kids arent tired after 5 minutes><>
n den we practised old stuff but yahh its sorta of a cycle. as it repeats and repeats n repeats. oh yah oh yah!
the teacher brought the stick to class today >< it =" =">
n den i got reli tired. cuz i concentrated for lke one whole hour which TOTALLY wasnt me. den the last half and hour i sat on the floor while looking at the tcher teach us. den e tcher say 你从那里坐到这里 快站起来 even tho he didnt haf the stick dat time i still did quickly or else the tcher will tell me to run or do 50 push ups....><
( dats worse cuz i cant even do 5 properly )
n den end class. n den went home for lunch.
did some hw......n den went for dance class.... i saw a bitchy girl. she is such a show off. n a bitch. urgh. cant blive im in same class as her.
okay okay her dance is better dan me. but yah who cares? duz she even dance better dan chris? no way! n den we learn a new dance n tcher say i got improveXD yay~ n the grl. she was wearing black shirt n jeans. i almost wanted to ask did u wear the same pants last time? XP n she put blue eyeliner today.
n den go home. n den went out to eat with my family (: cuz mom is going to switzerland for a week. its cold cold dere. hope mom will b ok (:
n den did geo hw did bio hw at the same time.
omg i shld b doing geo.....
shld stop writing.
2009年3月10日星期二
a letter
do you know what a glass heart is?
do you know what a person will become after they have/ had lost everything?
i do not know of whom i am referring to, of whom i am writing to right now. this is maybe a feeling of how i am feeling now.
after i realize that people hate/hated me, i learnt that life is not perfect, and no one is. the prettiest girl in the world can be the most bitchiest one too. the richest man on earth can yet be the poorest man on earth, as he might not have love. greediness, selfishness, and many more bad characters in life, which include flirtish, hua xin, and many many more. i cant really possibly list out the whole thing, as there are too many bad things about people in life.
however, i try to be positive, and live in my own world. for the people who hate/hated me, i dont really care. life is short, so why go hating someone and wasting your life over it? you do not know what will happen to you the next minute. its mystery when you do not know what is going to happen; its history once you know what is happening.
i still remember what happened to me when everybody in the whole grade hated me. i remember that day. but now when i think of it again, i smile. i have learnt from the past, moved on, make new friends, and this is what i wanted. so, i am happy with what i have now: a huge family who loves me, friends who understand and love me, and many many more.
i do not know why i am writing this here. i feel grateful to everything and anything on the world all of a sudden, especially those who are not really... alive?
for example music. if there wasnt music in my life, what wld i do? i am grateful to them. to it.
for some reason, i am grateful to those who gave me bad memories, or you can say insane memories. it is because of them, now i treasure more. my life is more perfect than they think it will be.
xoxo
END
do you know what a person will become after they have/ had lost everything?
i do not know of whom i am referring to, of whom i am writing to right now. this is maybe a feeling of how i am feeling now.
after i realize that people hate/hated me, i learnt that life is not perfect, and no one is. the prettiest girl in the world can be the most bitchiest one too. the richest man on earth can yet be the poorest man on earth, as he might not have love. greediness, selfishness, and many more bad characters in life, which include flirtish, hua xin, and many many more. i cant really possibly list out the whole thing, as there are too many bad things about people in life.
however, i try to be positive, and live in my own world. for the people who hate/hated me, i dont really care. life is short, so why go hating someone and wasting your life over it? you do not know what will happen to you the next minute. its mystery when you do not know what is going to happen; its history once you know what is happening.
i still remember what happened to me when everybody in the whole grade hated me. i remember that day. but now when i think of it again, i smile. i have learnt from the past, moved on, make new friends, and this is what i wanted. so, i am happy with what i have now: a huge family who loves me, friends who understand and love me, and many many more.
i do not know why i am writing this here. i feel grateful to everything and anything on the world all of a sudden, especially those who are not really... alive?
for example music. if there wasnt music in my life, what wld i do? i am grateful to them. to it.
for some reason, i am grateful to those who gave me bad memories, or you can say insane memories. it is because of them, now i treasure more. my life is more perfect than they think it will be.
xoxo
END
2009年3月9日星期一
MY. GLASS. HEART
今天还算ok拉~
心情跟昨天跟前天 差不多一样
突然之间有种失落感 矛盾 的感觉
如果。你爱上。你朋友。的男朋友。 会怎么样
如果。你心痛了 心碎了。会怎样
wt m i saying...
anyways
My. heart. is. made up of glass
easily broken. easily hurt.
my. heart. is. made. up. of. glass
tired. of. being. hurt.
tired. of. being. broken.
my. heart. is. made. up. of glass.
broken once. hurt. twice.
filled with. scars.
it screams. it. cries.
and. tries. to say. to you.
oh. please. dont. break.
oh. please. dont. hurt.
my. glass. heart.
心情跟昨天跟前天 差不多一样
突然之间有种失落感 矛盾 的感觉
如果。你爱上。你朋友。的男朋友。 会怎么样
如果。你心痛了 心碎了。会怎样
wt m i saying...
anyways
My. heart. is. made up of glass
easily broken. easily hurt.
my. heart. is. made. up. of. glass
tired. of. being. hurt.
tired. of. being. broken.
my. heart. is. made. up. of glass.
broken once. hurt. twice.
filled with. scars.
it screams. it. cries.
and. tries. to say. to you.
oh. please. dont. break.
oh. please. dont. hurt.
my. glass. heart.
2009年3月7日星期六
"FRIENDS"
cant believe how tired i feel now. i duno i thought that i have already "patched up" my broken hrt n sewn the peces back together, but now i feel it ripping again.
its lke a glass hrt,
when you nudge it
when you poke it
when u let it go n it falls
it breaks.
into a hundred n thousand million pieces.
Even if you find all those minute pieces,
even if you try to glue them back together
or even if you try to fix it again
there are still a hundered n thousand million scars dere
cuz dats a fact you cant change
its my hrt.
i want to tell you.
for the past yrs
i've been trying hard,
reli hard to patch it up.
and i did succeed,
cuz i got frenz
as i lrned from my mistakes, and
now i treasured dem more dan u r doing now.
but den till i met you,
my hrt falls apart again,
my hrt is hurt all over again,
my hrt is crying every minute again
just because i learnt the new you.
im tired u know
im trying hard to fix my hrt
im trying hrt to fix my soul
im trying hrd to fix my life
i tot it was already ok
but den u hurt me.
because of you im tired,
because of you i question friendship
because of you i am hurt
beacause of you watever i dun want to happen is happenning
even after i try to heal my hrt,
u hurt it even more
all i want to tell u is
my hrt is lke a glass hrt,
not able to face pain or hurt
so please let me free
let me heal my hrt once more...
its lke a glass hrt,
when you nudge it
when you poke it
when u let it go n it falls
it breaks.
into a hundred n thousand million pieces.
Even if you find all those minute pieces,
even if you try to glue them back together
or even if you try to fix it again
there are still a hundered n thousand million scars dere
cuz dats a fact you cant change
its my hrt.
i want to tell you.
for the past yrs
i've been trying hard,
reli hard to patch it up.
and i did succeed,
cuz i got frenz
as i lrned from my mistakes, and
now i treasured dem more dan u r doing now.
but den till i met you,
my hrt falls apart again,
my hrt is hurt all over again,
my hrt is crying every minute again
just because i learnt the new you.
im tired u know
im trying hard to fix my hrt
im trying hrt to fix my soul
im trying hrd to fix my life
i tot it was already ok
but den u hurt me.
because of you im tired,
because of you i question friendship
because of you i am hurt
beacause of you watever i dun want to happen is happenning
even after i try to heal my hrt,
u hurt it even more
all i want to tell u is
my hrt is lke a glass hrt,
not able to face pain or hurt
so please let me free
let me heal my hrt once more...
2009年3月5日星期四
random random thursday
bio bio chem chem lunch phy art art
bio:
went to lab (: den we found out we lost the data table = = ms rosalene was lke telling us we shldntb lke dat felt guilty. n den ms rosalene said dat she know dat i am smarter dan now but i didnt reli do the best i cld.. ( haf to agree) did a play on ventilation i was the diaphragmXD
chem:
notes. stuff. manage to persuade ms fong to push back the test to next thursday
lunch:
cldnt go back to class cuz dey were having test. den wen class start mr ng came out n scold us. say dun b so noisy n yah. 2moro also go ttest.but i think im going to be lke at the gym or sth. not at class.. at least try not to be. or else tcher scold :(
phy:
did the report. wrote it in 10 minutes. den switched it first with kaka. den with luwee. didnt get much comments so i told jennifer to help me comment.
art :
spraypaint. soo addictive. ms tay say if we hand it up lke dat we will get 1 for our score only. den we pasted it onto a piece of huge red paper. with black and whitehrts (: it looks rlei cute yah? (:
LOVE FOR ONE LOVE FOR ALL
our words on the poster
(:
cool yah?
lols
END
loves.
min yen
bio:
went to lab (: den we found out we lost the data table = = ms rosalene was lke telling us we shldntb lke dat felt guilty. n den ms rosalene said dat she know dat i am smarter dan now but i didnt reli do the best i cld.. ( haf to agree) did a play on ventilation i was the diaphragmXD
chem:
notes. stuff. manage to persuade ms fong to push back the test to next thursday
lunch:
cldnt go back to class cuz dey were having test. den wen class start mr ng came out n scold us. say dun b so noisy n yah. 2moro also go ttest.but i think im going to be lke at the gym or sth. not at class.. at least try not to be. or else tcher scold :(
phy:
did the report. wrote it in 10 minutes. den switched it first with kaka. den with luwee. didnt get much comments so i told jennifer to help me comment.
art :
spraypaint. soo addictive. ms tay say if we hand it up lke dat we will get 1 for our score only. den we pasted it onto a piece of huge red paper. with black and whitehrts (: it looks rlei cute yah? (:
LOVE FOR ONE LOVE FOR ALL
our words on the poster
(:
cool yah?
lols
END
loves.
min yen
2009年3月4日星期三
2 partsXS
从昨天开始就超级超级忙的说my weekly schedule
tuesday: math tuition with macy
friday swimming
saturday english class with joxin n her bro n my bro
sunday taekwondo n hip hop
urgh...喘不过气来了 这几天都好晚上线 kelvin 应该早就睡了 所以帮不上什么忙 不好意思噢～ 没想到我今天居然finish hw... except for maths... now i haf to lke finish all my hw in the day cuz my whole week is lke sooooo busy....urgh...
3.14.......白色情人节～ 真得好想收到礼物哦～～dat will b reli reli reli cool(:
i suddenly tot of memories of s2. i do not know why i cant think of the gd memories. my head is lke filled with the days when people quarrelled. things flying around XS.
be fore when i came into ssis. n first saw s2d i was lke wth = = cuz i saw lke ppl standing on table n yah... but now im used to it... i duno s2d is lke a changing point for me. lke loadz of things. i relaize how ppl can change i realize how ppl r lke it when they are they're REAL SELF. im lke confused. i was hurt emotionally. i juz realize this not long ago. now too. i am still hurt by the same person. EMOTIONALLY HURT. it sucks. i tot b4 if i get hurt my frenz will not get hurt. even a bit. so i didnt reli care much bout it. but den i duno y i still think dat if i get hurt myself ppl wun get hurt no matter wat. i tot i cld protect dem. or at least try. i mean i always think dat dis way i wun loose any1 in my life. not a single person. but now i know getting hurt hurts. ALOT
END
tuesday: math tuition with macy
friday swimming
saturday english class with joxin n her bro n my bro
sunday taekwondo n hip hop
urgh...喘不过气来了 这几天都好晚上线 kelvin 应该早就睡了 所以帮不上什么忙 不好意思噢～ 没想到我今天居然finish hw... except for maths... now i haf to lke finish all my hw in the day cuz my whole week is lke sooooo busy....urgh...
3.14.......白色情人节～ 真得好想收到礼物哦～～dat will b reli reli reli cool(:
i suddenly tot of memories of s2. i do not know why i cant think of the gd memories. my head is lke filled with the days when people quarrelled. things flying around XS.
be fore when i came into ssis. n first saw s2d i was lke wth = = cuz i saw lke ppl standing on table n yah... but now im used to it... i duno s2d is lke a changing point for me. lke loadz of things. i relaize how ppl can change i realize how ppl r lke it when they are they're REAL SELF. im lke confused. i was hurt emotionally. i juz realize this not long ago. now too. i am still hurt by the same person. EMOTIONALLY HURT. it sucks. i tot b4 if i get hurt my frenz will not get hurt. even a bit. so i didnt reli care much bout it. but den i duno y i still think dat if i get hurt myself ppl wun get hurt no matter wat. i tot i cld protect dem. or at least try. i mean i always think dat dis way i wun loose any1 in my life. not a single person. but now i know getting hurt hurts. ALOT
END
2009年3月2日星期一
to kelvin
其实3。14 你要ask her out not ask her out its yur choice but den luv cannot b "rushed" wat i mean is 要lke yahh juz follow yur hrt n stuff yah? i mean u cld either juz ask her out or give her a choco u made or cake right? lke wat i said on last last conv. dun think too much. PLUS DONT EVER THINK THAT U R A BASTARD OR ANYTHING CUZ U R NOT 1. u didnt know dat it happened and it wasnt wat u thought rite? so yah, juz jia you with 3.14 and dun think too much
min yen jia you's for u yah?~
jia you jia you jia yoouuu
dun think too muuch
min yen jia you's for u yah?~
jia you jia you jia yoouuu
dun think too muuch
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