i cannot control the tears from coming out of my eyes. im sorry. memories gush through my mind. the first time i went to a psychologist. the first time i believed in teachers. that was fourth grade or fifth. they looked nice. they really looked nice. i told them everything. really i told them everything. the first time i got emo. in primary. i rememmber walking through the hallways by myself. it was so lonely so dark like how my hrt felt. the lights were not properly fixed. so it was rather dim. then they fixed the skl. ppl came ppl left. my life changed. i tot it was better until s2. i tot i cld trust my form tcher. i told him dat i was going to a new skl. i do not wanna blame anyone else, but the only thing i need now and since primary is a bit of encouragement dats all. is dat really hard? cant you just say min yen you can do it or sth... rather than telling the new s3 teacher EVERYTHING n den i remember of the day where we had basketball match the new teacher told me dat she has heard about the changing skl thing. she was evening telling me it was not time for me. i remember how angry i got and even where i was on the basketball court. i remember CLEARLY who was there, wat happened, who won.
im sorry about wat happened just now. i cant believe till now i cant even bring myself to trust someone older than me. you dont get it. all i wanted is just ask WHY CANT I TRUST ADULTS... EVEN MY TEACHERS.. maybe i am being too naive.
to me, trust is too big a word and i lost it after wat had happened.

Jennifer: hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
I'M WITH MIN YEN NOW..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SAW A PICTURE OF MINYEN, SHE WAS ABOUT 5 AND IT'S SO CCCCCUUUUTTTTE!
COME AND SEE~
min yen: jennifer is crazy we r suppose to do math but we are bloggin now (:

was talking to kelvin just now. he is really upset about his life in australia now. 真的好担心他哦。。。我觉得我的计划不能被取消掉了。。。
sigh...so worried about him...

i wrote alot just now but it all went blank
and if kelvin, if you see this, pleasee pleasseeee reply me on msn....
dont just ignore mee...

and JAE HO
omg i totally did not know we had dance practise today!
its lke me jingyi sarah brenna anna and some other girls and keyou and vince right?
the performance is next week and i do not have a hint of it.
anyways need to revise for 听写 needa get full marks dis ttime (:
min yen


few things i do not understand about life:
1. why do people avoid chances? its like over there and probably the chance is just yours.
2. life is simple but why do people make it so complicated. its like countries wanting/finding competition against each other even though it is not needed. for example one day country a has lke economic growth all of a sudden then country b will work like hnell to do the same thing. isnt it tiring? when there is no one to compete agaisnt with, it all suddenly becomes....stupid.
3. why do people call each other stupid when God made us equally smart? Americans, Africans, Chinese, can do the same thing and maybe get the same results in many things. if a person was born with disabilities and could not think properly, they can be smart in other ways. they can know how to face difficulties in life as they cannot always lean on their family for help. what if they all die one day? and i bet they will face the difficulties better, and probably faster compared to people who are spoilt. its better to be street smart then brain smart with nothing.

HAVE TO CONCENTRAAAATTEEE

(: 今天心情没有那么 遭吧？
如果上个post 的那个人知道我在写他/她 我说对不起 X(

现在我没有时间管那一件事情 有更多事情等着我做~

你知道吗，没有你 我照样会过得很好 没有你 是一件很微妙的小事 我不管你在想什么 我也不想要知道 你自己去嫉妒好了 他对我超级超级好也不管你的事 可以是朋友 也可以是更多 我不知道我是指你还是你 但是 我是知道我的生活 并不缺少朋友 我只需要一个人关心我罢了
明年不知道还在不在 如果不在的话 没关系 如果在 我会希望。。。
我现在都不知道我在干吗了 满脑子都在想考试考试学习学习 在这里顺便发泄一下下 现在朋友又出点点问题了 现在又多出你的问题来了 真的很累 你不明白的 这样说 虽然会过分 但是 我不明白你为什么要这样 真的很讨厌 没有估计到我的感受 我如果疯了 我不知道我会干什么。。。
sigh...