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sigh sigh
dad is going to germany tomorrow and mum's not here for a week dat reli reli sucks how i wish i can tell both of them not to go cuz i dun reli lke it when the whole family is not eating together for dinner >< i remember mom had a meeting when it was sis bday so it was juz me , dad, sis , sis , uncle n bro n some of sis frenz ...but then, even f there was lke so many ppl it still feels weird... i wanted to wait but then , mom didnt come home early dat day.... worse of all she didnt eat the cake... T^T i mean mayb she didnt feel lke eating cake? but then i still wished she cld haf juz ate a piece or sth...
when we went out yesterday i hurt my leg... it was a bad bad day....when my bro me n sis went to buy food, i was waiting cuz e queue was reli long den bro bought some food...i ate 1 den sis said left 1 do u want to eat i said anything den sis said to bro if u want to eat u can eat.... den bro quickly stuffed it into his mouth... den sis said waah so fast speed ah den 4 some reason i hit him on the hand the food dropped on the floor. everyone was staring my brother scolded my in front of so many ppl i was embarrased i shldnt haf hit him rite....but then im still hurt...didnt get embarrased infront of public b4
T^T





shit....i need to b high again to stop the tears from flowing





aaaah......
ihate this.....


but then sometimes i reli wana change
but then sometimes i reli wana say i cant take it anymore




family is really impoortant to me more dan frenz now.... more dan anything else